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ryryryannn asked: thanks for following me, you suck Bear =P

here you go bee lol

Anonymous asked: You are coming back to Vienna on September i think. So are you going to continue stuyding here in Vienna?

Hey =) I will move back in June, and yes, I want to continue with my studies over there, but I don’t know yet what my plans will be =P

marieeunice asked: Hi Ms. Claire i just red your blog here in Tumblr. i understand the pain that you are going through. by the why im the girl that always send you tweets on twitter :) hehehe.. Im just happy to know that somehow you are making things to express your feeling like here on tumblr and twitter it will somehow ease the pain :) it seems like you are a strong woman and i know that you can move all along the painful situation :) Just GO and FIGHT :) but if you knew you can still work things out with Jeremy why dont you give it a try once again? i know that he loves you too. at least you've tried :) --- Made a decision to turn toward our trust and our faith that we will be okay, no matter what, we have now turned our lives over to the belief that all things happen for a reason. or GET A NEW HOBBY :) Take Care! Godbless :) GO FIGHT! :D

Thank you for always caring and reading my blogs my dear, thank you for all the motivating words =) 

The thing is that I know that it’s too late. I have tried as much as I can, really. And now I’m at a point where I could not go back because I went through too much pain and God showed me that I should finally let go. I can’t allow myself and my heart to get hurt that much again you know. I have to go through it now but believe me, after I’m done, I’m really done, you know? He might love me but you know what I’ve learned? Love is not enough to keep a relationship strong and going. Both need to love each other on the same level and try to make it work. Both need to realize that it needs hard work actually to make things work, especially in such a complex situation we were before. Well, life goes on.. I will get stronger and I know that God will send me another angel one day that will love me the same way back and would never hurt me that much ;) 

hope you are doing fine girl, always keep your faith, it’s beautiful =) God bless. 

emmceeburnedabee asked: How is you relationship with Jeremy if you don't mind me asking?

Hey, we are not together anymore… 

Hey fellows, I know it has been a long time since I was posting anything bigger… Sometimes I don’t know if I should post certain things online but I’m lonely a lot and need to share my thoughts and feelings with people. 

First of all, I’m from Vienna, Austria. I moved here to San Francisco almost 9 months ago. I moved here for Love, and of course had to take the necessary steps to do so.

It all started about a year before I moved here when I decided to take this big step. Jeremy and I have been in a long distance relationship for one year so far (2 years in total) and somebody HAD to move for the other person in order to try and see if this relationship is for life or not.

My plan was to come here and study for 4 years and build up a future with my love. I started organizing and planning, and believe me, there were so many times I just wanted to give up. Besides missing my love every day, I had to face obstacles that were nearly impossible to overcome. I am not rich and didn’t know how much money I had to save up in order to make life here work. 

I started off visiting an American-Education Center in Vienna where people give you advice regarding what to do and how to plan things out if you want to study in the US. After explaining things to me for about an hour, the guy there asked me this one last question: “So Miss Etter, how much money did you save up so far?”

My answer: “Nothing” (I really didn’t have any money left because I used all my savings twice to visit Jeremy here in the US and I had my bills and rent to pay)

He asked: “Nothing? How do you wanna move and study there? People usually save up money their whole life long to study in the US…” 

I was like: “Well, it’s my goal and I will make it”

The only thing he said was “Well, Good luck then” 

So, I realized how difficult it would be to reach my goal, but I knew that there was no way to give up, my love was too strong to give up. After I finished school in Vienna I started to work as a waitress and as a promotion girl. I had 9 months left in total and I knew that I had to save up $18 000. This was the amount of money I had to provide on my bank account and show the City College of San Francisco. No 18 000 - no studies in the US. I first sold my apartment and moved into my Dad’s flat. I then started working almost every day, either as a waitress or promotion girl, or both. Every few weeks I sold more and more of my stuff to make more money and family members helped me out to save up a little bit more by giving me money for Christmas and my birthday.

During these 9 months I barely had any time left to see my family and friends because I was just working really hard to get it all together. There are so many things I had to think about, thousands of papers and plans in front of me about how things should and could work out. My dad helped me a lot with organizing stuff and calculating things, and a lot of times I just ended up in tears or even screaming.

Without the mental help of my parents, family and best friends I could have never made it. 

July 21st was the day I moved. I moved with 2 suitcases in total and I saved up more than the required $18 000 ;)  The stuff in those 2 suitcases was everything I had left besides 2 boxes containing the most important documents and past memories, which I put in the attic. 

The pain I had to deal with when I left was more than hurtful, but I had to do it, there was no other way for me to find out if this relationship will work out or not. (Well, it didn’t work out with my ex-boyfriend, but this is a different story which I don’t want to make public)

Okay ladies and gents, I will continue another time ;) 

Thanks for reading …

This is a topic that really touches me deep inside.

I have a hard time forgiving people sometimes, because in my mind I just think that they don’t deserve to receive the love that I want to give. It’s even more hard for me to forgive people that hurt somebody that I really love. If my close friends, family members or other beloved ones get hurt, I feel the pain even more.

“Why should I forgive that person soo easily, that person really hurt me” or 

“I can’t forgive that person because she/ he is not a friend. A true friend would never hurt you that much!”

Of course, a lot of these things will be spoken if you are angry and don’t know how to deal with your anger. I know that everybody deserves a second chance BUT I’m no one to give second chances that easily. People that hurt other people need to realize that they can’t make things better with just saying SORRY. There is more to show and to do if you ask for forgiveness and really want someone back in you life.

QUOTE: “You can forgive someone almost anything. But you cannot tolerate everything… We don’t have to tolerate what people do just because we forgive them for doing it. Forgiving heals us personally. To tolerate everything only hurts us all in the long run.”  by  Lewis B. Smedes  (thinkexist.com)

Friends come and go in life, I’ve learned that already years ago. No matter what happens in life, it is an experience and every little thing in life happens for a reason. BUT I am the one to decide whom I wanna give my love to.

I don’t know how many people out there share the same opinion with me but I think that everybody deals differently with this big step called FORGIVENESS. 

God bless you all!

ps.: just follow your heart! it tells you the right way ;)